never understood

Photo by Jack Ward on Unsplash never understood I never understood the pull towards you the strong desire  to be near you the ease with which our souls merged maybe for you, it was mere flattery welcoming my curiosity  playfulness my open-hearted being parts of me, I sense were seeking to feel the open scars…

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noticed

Photo by Shubham Dhage on Unsplash noticed have you noticed  how quickly we are able  to return to peace and make up if we pause  listening to stillness speak instead of guarding our defences how easy it is to be present  with our missteps if we begin to trust each other with what we prefer…

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most vulnerable

Photo by mwangi gatheca on Unsplash most vulnerable the most vulnerable thing I did was being unguarded surrendering myself to you was letting you touch my soul not hiding my tears from you the most vulnerable thing I did was showing you my pain and you looked away could you and I have done anything…

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labels

Photo by Kelli McClintock on Unsplash labels refusing to fit into any kind of box even the ones I fashion for myself I am free to express  or to shut up to be open or inhibited to be exuberant or stifled to be animated or quiet who cares I allow the oddities of my being …

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taking space

Photo by Adrian Swancar on Unsplash taking space giving myself  and taking  all the space  and time I need feeling a whole range of emotions visiting me from the past letting them in  and holding onto them until their charge is diffused digesting and processing  until there is nothing left to feel  until I have…

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silent voice

Photo by zhang kaiyv on Unsplash silent voice my silent voice awoke with inner visions whispering from deep within speaking of precious seeds  I hold inside buried by the sands of rejection and a wondrous well  cups and spoons of its waters draw out  what lies dormant and is longing to emerge listening  and heeding…

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where else

photo by Dan Cristian Pădureț on Unsplash where else where else can I reflect on what is alive in me where else can I be surprised by what reveals itself and marvel and cringe where else am I allowed to make assumptions and get it wrong uncovering different perspectives if not here where else can…

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vanity

Photo by Eugene Lagunov on Unsplash vanity I am a clown of vanity seeking validation everywhere chasing empty meaning to exhaustion from one shallow high to the next tired of the chase and the energy I waste I find no peace in rest endlessly repeating what does not work for me my masks weigh heavy…

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no way out

Photo by Viktor Forgacs on Unsplash no way out I can’t meditate my insecurities away escape my past and numb the leftovers  I can’t talk  my way out re-telling my story reaching for better thoughts without taking perspective I can’t be dieting or fasting myself into a better me reshaping my soul through exercise my…

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pleasure

Photo by Mitch de Klein on Unsplash pleasure is water showering my head and blissful sensations trickling down  tickling me a soft breeze stroking the sun kissing my face it is sweat rewarding my effort and strong winds filling my sails the cold shaking and warmth embracing me it is me rising up effortlessly against…

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coming out

Photo by Didssph on Unsplash coming out I hear your call but might not heed it coming out of my shell is sometimes too much to ask I like the freedom to retreat into its sanctuary into rest pause and stillness laziness of thought and action into the shelter of quietness when I join you…

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the shape of music

Photo by Jason Leung on Unsplash the shape of music never still continuously flowing from one interval to the next expanding in colour intensity and quiet pause excitement and curiosity builds in the presence and absence of sound leading to liberation from thought enticing spontaneity in action following, breaking and playing with its rhythmical guidance…

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