no ordinary moment

Photo by Gaston Roulstone on Unsplash no ordinary moment decent coffee nothing special about the pastries everything about you, is moving away from the ordinary hand on your belly calling in a dream while chasing away sleeplessness a clear direction leading and guiding you a vision shared tiny white feather caught in your coat a…

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no explanation

Photo by Ashkan Forouzani on Unsplash no explanation my tears don’t ask questions and my mind unable  to compute their meaning do they taste of joy? is their sweetness  speaking of a sadness lifting? no calculus can square my feelings no answer sufficiently describe what happens when our hearts meet no explanation measures the level…

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longing

Photo by Kevin Pastor on Unsplash longing longing for the day when my writing is at an end and paper, not the only one listening when the sad songs I write change tune when we stop hiding discomfort from each other coming closer with each passionate exchange when we are nourished by the space we…

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out-comes

Photo by Linus Sandvide on Unsplash out-comes it is the out-comes I am after not betterment pushing me nor validation I seek for cleverness of thought judging others does not motivate me nor does the volume of my voice  make for a convincing argument it is the impact  of being moved and touched,  heard,  felt…

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sadness

Photo by Pedro Mealha on Unsplash sadness  my old friend sadness is visiting again time to welcome taking notice time to quit ignoring her reading my tears  her invitation is to no longer be misled by the thrill of the chase when pursuing elusive connections I am sad having  to let go of people who…

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no suffering

Photo by Hailey Kean on Unsplash no suffering don’t even try taking my pain away don’t even think  about fixing me I am not broken feeling  intensely is not suffering pain is my friend the one I can trust and count on without it  I hurt myself in the fire of attraction, passion and longing…

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feeling whole

Photo by Alex Eckermann on Unsplash feeling whole never did I ask (you) to take my pain away us being present  and feeling each other was all I wanted your mere company soothing resting next to you delightful getting too close my vulnerability seemed  to scare (you) all you could do was run  from my…

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kidding myself

Photo by Moreno Matković on Unsplash kidding myself when I am unwilling to reveal my struggles  sacrificing you for my discomfort  when I offer you on the altar of my ego when my hidden suffering is quietly spilling over  threatening to drown you when I avoid what you reflect and you have to take on…

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no waiting

not waiting not waiting in the wings for my moment to shine in your light not anticipating  you are finding rest in our closeness not expecting  to move from understudy to supporting role with regular parts to play I am not waiting to be called onto the stage having rehearsed plenty I am stepping out…

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weird

Photo by Kyle Brinker on Unsplash Weird if you think me weird for loving with an unconditional openness  because I can not do any different then yes,  I am weird if I seem weak to you for being vulnerable and honest  when expressing how I feel then yes,  I am weak if you consider me…

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beyond us

image by Ewa Ka on Facebook beyond us giving you what you wished for seemed beyond me giving me what I wished for seemed beyond you quietly hoping we would mend our oblique emotions and thaw what was frozen in time foolishly trusting the clouds shrouding our joyous being would somehow part that we would…

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it’s not for me

Photo by Reza Hasannia on Unsplash it’s not for me it’s not for me to take on the shitstorm of suffering passed on across generations asking for my complicity in perpetuating the emotional disfigurement we are trying to escape it is not for me to bear the fallout from the pain caused by violating innocence it…

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what hides behind?

Photo by Elijah Hiett on Unsplash what hides behind? behind my questions hides curiosity behind my words hide no answers behind my life hides gratitude behind my being hides presence behind my mind hides understanding behind my tolerance hides freedom behind my patience hides trust  behind my vulnerability hides strength behind my senses hide emotions…

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