Photo by Gaston Roulstone on Unsplash no ordinary moment decent coffee nothing special about the pastries everything about you, is moving away from the ordinary hand on your belly calling in a dream while chasing away sleeplessness a clear direction leading and guiding you a vision shared tiny white feather caught in your coat a…
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Photo by Moreno Matković on Unsplash kidding myself when I am unwilling to reveal my struggles sacrificing you for my discomfort when I offer you on the altar of my ego when my hidden suffering is quietly spilling over threatening to drown you when I avoid what you reflect and you have to take on…
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not waiting not waiting in the wings for my moment to shine in your light not anticipating you are finding rest in our closeness not expecting to move from understudy to supporting role with regular parts to play I am not waiting to be called onto the stage having rehearsed plenty I am stepping out…
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Photo by Kyle Brinker on Unsplash Weird if you think me weird for loving with an unconditional openness because I can not do any different then yes, I am weird if I seem weak to you for being vulnerable and honest when expressing how I feel then yes, I am weak if you consider me…
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image by Ewa Ka on Facebook beyond us giving you what you wished for seemed beyond me giving me what I wished for seemed beyond you quietly hoping we would mend our oblique emotions and thaw what was frozen in time foolishly trusting the clouds shrouding our joyous being would somehow part that we would…
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Photo by Reza Hasannia on Unsplash it’s not for me it’s not for me to take on the shitstorm of suffering passed on across generations asking for my complicity in perpetuating the emotional disfigurement we are trying to escape it is not for me to bear the fallout from the pain caused by violating innocence it…
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Photo by Elijah Hiett on Unsplash what hides behind? behind my questions hides curiosity behind my words hide no answers behind my life hides gratitude behind my being hides presence behind my mind hides understanding behind my tolerance hides freedom behind my patience hides trust behind my vulnerability hides strength behind my senses hide emotions…
Read moreunderstanding nothing
Photo by Önder Örtel on Unsplash understanding nothing not knowing what deeply resonated, invited and seduced me to be near you no clue what tied our souls touching me to the core nothing I chose not in this lifetime, no you left me understanding nothing but feeling everything
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Photo by Q Q on Unsplash sentiments exploring and expressing sentiments are pivotal to my transformation you might disagree with how I see things and without talking you can not change my perspective how I remember things how I interpret my experience my process embraces beautiful memories and uncomfortable reflections, projections and assumptions touching on…
Read moremoments to be treasured
Photo by DaYsO on Unsplash moments to be treasured no promises no expectations made each encounter a curious exploration a playful expansion of our souls every moment we shared a cherished experience missing you now does not distract from what we gave each other treasured though fleeting lasting long enough to remain alive in me
Read moredancing with unavailability
Photo by Thom Milkovic on Unsplash dancing with unavailability not assuming unworthiness or disappointment the mysterious bond we formed confused me when dancing with your unavailability reflecting your needs dressed up as freedom with past expectations intruding it felt unsafe and painful at times yet what a perfect pairing we made touching on our wounds when…
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Photo by Armin Lotfi on Unsplash your silence when I noticed something had changed and turned different for you your silence had me guessing fostering confusion fuelling assumptions and projections triggering ( unavoidable ) pain when you moved on to say not much at all about how you felt other than respecting your choice I…
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Photo by Jack Ward on Unsplash never understood I never understood the pull towards you the strong desire to be near you the ease with which our souls merged maybe for you, it was mere flattery welcoming my curiosity playfulness my open-hearted being parts of me, I sense were seeking to feel the open scars…
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