Photo by Moreno Matković on Unsplash kidding myself when I am unwilling to reveal my struggles sacrificing you for my discomfort when I offer you on the altar of my ego when my hidden suffering is quietly spilling over threatening to drown you when I avoid what you reflect and you have to take on…
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not waiting not waiting in the wings for my moment to shine in your light not anticipating you are finding rest in our closeness not expecting to move from understudy to supporting role with regular parts to play I am not waiting to be called onto the stage having rehearsed plenty I am stepping out…
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Photo by Kyle Brinker on Unsplash Weird if you think me weird for loving with an unconditional openness because I can not do any different then yes, I am weird if I seem weak to you for being vulnerable and honest when expressing how I feel then yes, I am weak if you consider me…
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Photo by Reza Hasannia on Unsplash it’s not for me it’s not for me to take on the shitstorm of suffering passed on across generations asking for my complicity in perpetuating the emotional disfigurement we are trying to escape it is not for me to bear the fallout from the pain caused by violating innocence it…
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Photo by Elijah Hiett on Unsplash what hides behind? behind my questions hides curiosity behind my words hide no answers behind my life hides gratitude behind my being hides presence behind my mind hides understanding behind my tolerance hides freedom behind my patience hides trust behind my vulnerability hides strength behind my senses hide emotions…
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Photo by Jack Ward on Unsplash never understood I never understood the pull towards you the strong desire to be near you the ease with which our souls merged maybe for you, it was mere flattery welcoming my curiosity playfulness my open-hearted being parts of me, I sense were seeking to feel the open scars…
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Photo by Shubham Dhage on Unsplash noticed have you noticed how quickly we are able to return to peace and make up if we pause listening to stillness speak instead of guarding our defences how easy it is to be present with our missteps if we begin to trust each other with what we prefer…
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Photo by mwangi gatheca on Unsplash most vulnerable the most vulnerable thing I did was being unguarded surrendering myself to you was letting you touch my soul not hiding my tears from you the most vulnerable thing I did was showing you my pain and you looked away could you and I have done anything…
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Photo by Kelli McClintock on Unsplash labels refusing to fit into any kind of box even the ones I fashion for myself I am free to express or to shut up to be open or inhibited to be exuberant or stifled to be animated or quiet who cares I allow the oddities of my being …
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Photo by Adrian Swancar on Unsplash taking space giving myself and taking all the space and time I need feeling a whole range of emotions visiting me from the past letting them in and holding onto them until their charge is diffused digesting and processing until there is nothing left to feel until I have…
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Photo by zhang kaiyv on Unsplash silent voice my silent voice awoke with inner visions whispering from deep within speaking of precious seeds I hold inside buried by the sands of rejection and a wondrous well cups and spoons of its waters draw out what lies dormant and is longing to emerge listening and heeding…
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photo by Dan Cristian Pădureț on Unsplash where else where else can I reflect on what is alive in me where else can I be surprised by what reveals itself and marvel and cringe where else am I allowed to make assumptions and get it wrong uncovering different perspectives if not here where else can…
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