spiral

Photo by Alex Eckermann on Unsplash spiral at the centre of my being everything else is moving around me in and out  of my life stirring inspiring touching awakening me to all that is alive within what does not resonate or reach my heart will keep spinning leaving me cold what does not ring true…

Read more

shake me

Photo by Jeremy Bishop on Unsplash shake me shake me awake  push me to the edge I whisper to my soul turn up the dial  so I hear and feel my heart beating the movement of my inner being following and surrendering to its direction trusting the unknown unfold from a whisper to a deep…

Read more

kidding myself

Photo by Moreno Matković on Unsplash kidding myself when I am unwilling to reveal my struggles  sacrificing you for my discomfort  when I offer you on the altar of my ego when my hidden suffering is quietly spilling over  threatening to drown you when I avoid what you reflect and you have to take on…

Read more

no waiting

not waiting not waiting in the wings for my moment to shine in your light not anticipating  you are finding rest in our closeness not expecting  to move from understudy to supporting role with regular parts to play I am not waiting to be called onto the stage having rehearsed plenty I am stepping out…

Read more

weird

Photo by Kyle Brinker on Unsplash Weird if you think me weird for loving with an unconditional openness  because I can not do any different then yes,  I am weird if I seem weak to you for being vulnerable and honest  when expressing how I feel then yes,  I am weak if you consider me…

Read more

it’s not for me

Photo by Reza Hasannia on Unsplash it’s not for me it’s not for me to take on the shitstorm of suffering passed on across generations asking for my complicity in perpetuating the emotional disfigurement we are trying to escape it is not for me to bear the fallout from the pain caused by violating innocence it…

Read more

what hides behind?

Photo by Elijah Hiett on Unsplash what hides behind? behind my questions hides curiosity behind my words hide no answers behind my life hides gratitude behind my being hides presence behind my mind hides understanding behind my tolerance hides freedom behind my patience hides trust  behind my vulnerability hides strength behind my senses hide emotions…

Read more

never understood

Photo by Jack Ward on Unsplash never understood I never understood the pull towards you the strong desire  to be near you the ease with which our souls merged maybe for you, it was mere flattery welcoming my curiosity  playfulness my open-hearted being parts of me, I sense were seeking to feel the open scars…

Read more

noticed

Photo by Shubham Dhage on Unsplash noticed have you noticed  how quickly we are able  to return to peace and make up if we pause  listening to stillness speak instead of guarding our defences how easy it is to be present  with our missteps if we begin to trust each other with what we prefer…

Read more

most vulnerable

Photo by mwangi gatheca on Unsplash most vulnerable the most vulnerable thing I did was being unguarded surrendering myself to you was letting you touch my soul not hiding my tears from you the most vulnerable thing I did was showing you my pain and you looked away could you and I have done anything…

Read more

labels

Photo by Kelli McClintock on Unsplash labels refusing to fit into any kind of box even the ones I fashion for myself I am free to express  or to shut up to be open or inhibited to be exuberant or stifled to be animated or quiet who cares I allow the oddities of my being …

Read more

taking space

Photo by Adrian Swancar on Unsplash taking space giving myself  and taking  all the space  and time I need feeling a whole range of emotions visiting me from the past letting them in  and holding onto them until their charge is diffused digesting and processing  until there is nothing left to feel  until I have…

Read more