here and now

Photo by Ian Keefe on Unsplash here and now no longer am I chasing happiness nor am I playing to outer validation no longer am I slave to expectation no longer am I asking you to take away distress no longer am I running from discomfort or hiding from my pain holding space for inner turmoil…

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2025

Photo by Daniel Apodaca on Unsplash 2025 may we communicate openly  with mindfulness and sensitivity when meeting each other heart-to-heart may we brave discomfort and honesty when tending to our wounding holding space for ourselves with compassion may we welcome and invite love as it is given and may we be open and feel when…

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what if

Photo by Shivansh Sharma on Unsplash what if what if I am failing forward every single day and I get to keep all that is good inside of me what if my unfiltered expression does not need to be censored what if my phrasing does not demand editing my language does not want correction what…

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shadow people

Photo by Peter Forster on Unsplash shadow people feed the  intensity of my feelings when my anxieties are impossible to bear and hold looking into your mirror their lasting impact sneaks up on me clouding my responses misguiding me unable to make out their faces  not sensing their presence the scars remain invisible never will…

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no do-over

Photo by CHUTTERSNAP on Unsplash no do-over  there is no do-over no re-run of the past no re-try  no re-tracing of missed steps what escaped my mouth I can’t unsay what hit the paper I can’t erase I neglected to take care my intensity not for you to hold my wounds not for you to…

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agony

Photo by mwangi gatheca on Unsplash agony in agony I am desperately seeking refuge  from the density of my past aiming to retreat  into the formlessness of my soul to recover from what stirs from without and from within and to expand into the softness of my being wishing to be stilled  when holding myself…

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out of reach

Photo by roman raizen on Unsplash out of reach looking into the face of my wounding features distorted I do not recognise myself staying still for long enough feeling the fear and holding myself  composing myself out of reach  the threat of being left in the dark when you seek and ask for space its…

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not hiding

Photo by Milos Lopusina on Unsplash not hiding my insights and thoughts my silly jokes my assumptions and projections the words pouring out of my pen how I feel  how I love my joy my sadness my tears flowing freely bursting out after conception I can’t hold them back I can’t hide them I can’t…

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coming for me

Photo by Nathan Dumlao on Unsplash coming for me coming into life life is now coming for me its continuous flow of growth and renewal will carry me away sooner than  I would wish for there is no guarantee or promise tomorrow’s sun will rise for me again I have no time left  to wallow…

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looking my way

Photo by Majestic Lukas on Unsplash looking my way noticing how scared I am when love looks my way when the closeness I desire moves toward me I am to run or hide most likely from the good trouble noticing how I fear  the deep connection I crave so much and how my wounded self…

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uncomfortably close

Photo by Preslava Glushkova on Unsplash uncomfortably close stepping into what touched my soul and surrendering to its fullness curious about  what it wanted to reveal when tears came running  cleansing my feelings a blissful lightness  washed over me exposing the sadness  hiding of missing you excitement and pain desire and bliss their sensations so…

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the game we play

Photo by Wim van ‘t Einde on Unsplash the game we play there is no scoreboard in the game, we play no red cards no suspensions no penalties no fouls we are not tripping each other up mischievous and naughty tender and sensual joyful and fun and rough at times tied up maybe though never…

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