image by Ewa Ka on Facebook beyond us giving you what you wished for seemed beyond me giving me what I wished for seemed beyond you quietly hoping we would mend our oblique emotions and thaw what was frozen in time foolishly trusting the clouds shrouding our joyous being would somehow part that we would…
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Photo by Reza Hasannia on Unsplash it’s not for me it’s not for me to take on the shitstorm of suffering passed on across generations asking for my complicity in perpetuating the emotional disfigurement we are trying to escape it is not for me to bear the fallout from the pain caused by violating innocence it…
Read moreunderstanding nothing
Photo by Önder Örtel on Unsplash understanding nothing not knowing what deeply resonated, invited and seduced me to be near you no clue what tied our souls touching me to the core nothing I chose not in this lifetime, no you left me understanding nothing but feeling everything
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Photo by Q Q on Unsplash sentiments exploring and expressing sentiments are pivotal to my transformation you might disagree with how I see things and without talking you can not change my perspective how I remember things how I interpret my experience my process embraces beautiful memories and uncomfortable reflections, projections and assumptions touching on…
Read moremoments to be treasured
Photo by DaYsO on Unsplash moments to be treasured no promises no expectations made each encounter a curious exploration a playful expansion of our souls every moment we shared a cherished experience missing you now does not distract from what we gave each other treasured though fleeting lasting long enough to remain alive in me
Read moredancing with unavailability
Photo by Thom Milkovic on Unsplash dancing with unavailability not assuming unworthiness or disappointment the mysterious bond we formed confused me when dancing with your unavailability reflecting your needs dressed up as freedom with past expectations intruding it felt unsafe and painful at times yet what a perfect pairing we made touching on our wounds when…
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Photo by Armin Lotfi on Unsplash your silence when I noticed something had changed and turned different for you your silence had me guessing fostering confusion fuelling assumptions and projections triggering ( unavoidable ) pain when you moved on to say not much at all about how you felt other than respecting your choice I…
Read morenever understood
Photo by Jack Ward on Unsplash never understood I never understood the pull towards you the strong desire to be near you the ease with which our souls merged maybe for you, it was mere flattery welcoming my curiosity playfulness my open-hearted being parts of me, I sense were seeking to feel the open scars…
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Photo by Thiébaud Faix on Unsplash no voice in spite of committing more words than you can read onto paper in spite of speaking up sharing how I feel I have not found my voice I am not heard, seen, nor felt my voice is not free a mere squeak with no range and volume…
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Photo by Shubham Dhage on Unsplash noticed have you noticed how quickly we are able to return to peace and make up if we pause listening to stillness speak instead of guarding our defences how easy it is to be present with our missteps if we begin to trust each other with what we prefer…
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Photo by mwangi gatheca on Unsplash most vulnerable the most vulnerable thing I did was being unguarded surrendering myself to you was letting you touch my soul not hiding my tears from you the most vulnerable thing I did was showing you my pain and you looked away could you and I have done anything…
Read morenight and day
Photo by Kevin Crosby on Unsplash night and day letting you taste my day its playfulness and joy its open generosity and tenderness I shared with you my night its demons, vulnerability and fear having you feel all of me your presence alone brought a sparkle to my stars awareness onto the path of…
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