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kidding myself
when I am unwilling to reveal my struggles
sacrificing you for my discomfort
when I offer you on the altar of my ego
when my hidden suffering is quietly spilling over
threatening to drown you
when I avoid what you reflect
and you have to take on what was
not planted in your soil
not grown in your garden
I am merely surviving
treading water to nowhere
not getting away when running
standing still when moving
out of courage
and masquerading my soul