Photo by Linus Sandvide on Unsplash out-comes it is the out-comes I am after not betterment pushing me nor validation I seek for cleverness of thought judging others does not motivate me nor does the volume of my voice make for a convincing argument it is the impact of being moved and touched, heard, felt…
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Photo by Pedro Mealha on Unsplash sadness my old friend sadness is visiting again time to welcome taking notice time to quit ignoring her reading my tears her invitation is to no longer be misled by the thrill of the chase when pursuing elusive connections I am sad having to let go of people who…
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Photo by Hailey Kean on Unsplash no suffering don’t even try taking my pain away don’t even think about fixing me I am not broken feeling intensely is not suffering pain is my friend the one I can trust and count on without it I hurt myself in the fire of attraction, passion and longing…
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Photo by Alex Eckermann on Unsplash feeling whole never did I ask (you) to take my pain away us being present and feeling each other was all I wanted your mere company soothing resting next to you delightful getting too close my vulnerability seemed to scare (you) all you could do was run from my…
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Photo by Moreno Matković on Unsplash kidding myself when I am unwilling to reveal my struggles sacrificing you for my discomfort when I offer you on the altar of my ego when my hidden suffering is quietly spilling over threatening to drown you when I avoid what you reflect and you have to take on…
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not waiting not waiting in the wings for my moment to shine in your light not anticipating you are finding rest in our closeness not expecting to move from understudy to supporting role with regular parts to play I am not waiting to be called onto the stage having rehearsed plenty I am stepping out…
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Photo by Kyle Brinker on Unsplash Weird if you think me weird for loving with an unconditional openness because I can not do any different then yes, I am weird if I seem weak to you for being vulnerable and honest when expressing how I feel then yes, I am weak if you consider me…
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image by Ewa Ka on Facebook beyond us giving you what you wished for seemed beyond me giving me what I wished for seemed beyond you quietly hoping we would mend our oblique emotions and thaw what was frozen in time foolishly trusting the clouds shrouding our joyous being would somehow part that we would…
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Photo by Reza Hasannia on Unsplash it’s not for me it’s not for me to take on the shitstorm of suffering passed on across generations asking for my complicity in perpetuating the emotional disfigurement we are trying to escape it is not for me to bear the fallout from the pain caused by violating innocence it…
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Photo by Elijah Hiett on Unsplash what hides behind? behind my questions hides curiosity behind my words hide no answers behind my life hides gratitude behind my being hides presence behind my mind hides understanding behind my tolerance hides freedom behind my patience hides trust behind my vulnerability hides strength behind my senses hide emotions…
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Photo by Önder Örtel on Unsplash understanding nothing not knowing what deeply resonated, invited and seduced me to be near you no clue what tied our souls touching me to the core nothing I chose not in this lifetime, no you left me understanding nothing but feeling everything
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Photo by Q Q on Unsplash sentiments exploring and expressing sentiments are pivotal to my transformation you might disagree with how I see things and without talking you can not change my perspective how I remember things how I interpret my experience my process embraces beautiful memories and uncomfortable reflections, projections and assumptions touching on…
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