am I the problem?

Photo by Saad Chaudhry on Unsplash am I the problem? does the buck stop with me? it might, when words reveal my wounds when they touch your vulnerability and encroach on your space when you feel pushed into a corner I’d rather be wrong than unwilling to face  the situation,the conflict,the impact I created looking…

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questions

Photo by ÉMILE SÉGUIN ✳️✳️✳️ on Unsplash questions once I am going deep  once I avoid limited perspectives trapping my mind labelling you and blaming you for what hides within will no longer suffice will no longer unravel the intrigue of our push and pull no longer answer to our dynamic our emotional entanglement unexplainable…

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break fall

Photo by Anthony Lee on Unsplash break fall breaking the fall softening my landing is giving me momentum  to rise again like welcoming the rain enjoying falling leafs gifting flowers for no reason learning from the river’s song carried by the current’s tide meeting my mistakes gently held in unseen hands listening to their whispers…

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no claim

Photo by Kelly Sikkema on Unsplash no claim never did I ask to see me in a light I did not cast to look at me from distorting angles  never did I ask to think me better than I am to believe me more evolved  never did I seek your adoration no claim I made…

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Why should I see a therapist?

Photo by Yulia Matvienko on Unsplash Why should I see a therapist? I have never been in therapy, except for attending couples therapy some years ago, which, to be honest, didn’t help much—if at all—beyond confirming the inescapable truth that we were not compatible. However, through that process, I might have shed some of the…

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spiral

Photo by Alex Eckermann on Unsplash spiral at the centre of my being everything else is moving around me in and out  of my life stirring inspiring touching awakening me to all that is alive within what does not resonate or reach my heart will keep spinning leaving me cold what does not ring true…

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shake me

Photo by Jeremy Bishop on Unsplash shake me shake me awake  push me to the edge I whisper to my soul turn up the dial  so I hear and feel my heart beating the movement of my inner being following and surrendering to its direction trusting the unknown unfold from a whisper to a deep…

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kidding myself

Photo by Moreno Matković on Unsplash kidding myself when I am unwilling to reveal my struggles  sacrificing you for my discomfort  when I offer you on the altar of my ego when my hidden suffering is quietly spilling over  threatening to drown you when I avoid what you reflect and you have to take on…

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no waiting

not waiting not waiting in the wings for my moment to shine in your light not anticipating  you are finding rest in our closeness not expecting  to move from understudy to supporting role with regular parts to play I am not waiting to be called onto the stage having rehearsed plenty I am stepping out…

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weird

Photo by Kyle Brinker on Unsplash Weird if you think me weird for loving with an unconditional openness  because I can not do any different then yes,  I am weird if I seem weak to you for being vulnerable and honest  when expressing how I feel then yes,  I am weak if you consider me…

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it’s not for me

Photo by Reza Hasannia on Unsplash it’s not for me it’s not for me to take on the shitstorm of suffering passed on across generations asking for my complicity in perpetuating the emotional disfigurement we are trying to escape it is not for me to bear the fallout from the pain caused by violating innocence it…

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what hides behind?

Photo by Elijah Hiett on Unsplash what hides behind? behind my questions hides curiosity behind my words hide no answers behind my life hides gratitude behind my being hides presence behind my mind hides understanding behind my tolerance hides freedom behind my patience hides trust  behind my vulnerability hides strength behind my senses hide emotions…

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