Photo by Shivansh Sharma on Unsplash what if what if I am failing forward every single day and I get to keep all that is good inside of me what if my unfiltered expression does not need to be censored what if my phrasing does not demand editing my language does not want correction what…
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Photo by Peter Forster on Unsplash shadow people feed the intensity of my feelings when my anxieties are impossible to bear and hold looking into your mirror their lasting impact sneaks up on me clouding my responses misguiding me unable to make out their faces not sensing their presence the scars remain invisible never will…
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Photo by CHUTTERSNAP on Unsplash no do-over there is no do-over no re-run of the past no re-try no re-tracing of missed steps what escaped my mouth I can’t unsay what hit the paper I can’t erase I neglected to take care my intensity not for you to hold my wounds not for you to…
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Photo by mwangi gatheca on Unsplash agony in agony I am desperately seeking refuge from the density of my past aiming to retreat into the formlessness of my soul to recover from what stirs from without and from within and to expand into the softness of my being wishing to be stilled when holding myself…
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Photo by roman raizen on Unsplash out of reach looking into the face of my wounding features distorted I do not recognise myself staying still for long enough feeling the fear and holding myself composing myself out of reach the threat of being left in the dark when you seek and ask for space its…
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Photo by Milos Lopusina on Unsplash not hiding my insights and thoughts my silly jokes my assumptions and projections the words pouring out of my pen how I feel how I love my joy my sadness my tears flowing freely bursting out after conception I can’t hold them back I can’t hide them I can’t…
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Photo by Nathan Dumlao on Unsplash coming for me coming into life life is now coming for me its continuous flow of growth and renewal will carry me away sooner than I would wish for there is no guarantee or promise tomorrow’s sun will rise for me again I have no time left to wallow…
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Photo by Majestic Lukas on Unsplash looking my way noticing how scared I am when love looks my way when the closeness I desire moves toward me I am to run or hide most likely from the good trouble noticing how I fear the deep connection I crave so much and how my wounded self…
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Photo by Preslava Glushkova on Unsplash uncomfortably close stepping into what touched my soul and surrendering to its fullness curious about what it wanted to reveal when tears came running cleansing my feelings a blissful lightness washed over me exposing the sadness hiding of missing you excitement and pain desire and bliss their sensations so…
Read morethe game we play
Photo by Wim van ‘t Einde on Unsplash the game we play there is no scoreboard in the game, we play no red cards no suspensions no penalties no fouls we are not tripping each other up mischievous and naughty tender and sensual joyful and fun and rough at times tied up maybe though never…
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Photo by Li Yang on Unsplash impossible learning to walk was impossible without me collecting bruises along the way when falling countless times without getting up again and again learning to swim was impossible without swallowing water without wetting my feet and being out of my depth learning to love you is impossible without expanding…
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Photo by Jongsun Lee on Unsplash bliss I hope the sun finds you today I hope her warmth will hold you in the presence of your heart radiating gently into every corner of your being nourishing your tired limbs bringing light into your spaciousness fizzling all over you and cascading down enveloping you in a…
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