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your silence
when I noticed something
had changed and turned different for you
your silence
had me guessing
fostering confusion
fuelling assumptions and projections
triggering ( unavoidable ) pain
when you moved on to say not much at all
about how you felt
other than respecting your choice
I was left more befuddled
and it smelled of disrespect to me
dismissive of our connection
as if our closeness suddenly did not count much for anything anymore
brought on by your dislike for conflict and discomfort
by your avoidance
and hiding behind busy-ness
your defensive response to my questions and reflections
made the growing wall between us even larger
I would have wished for a higher level of clarity
for a graceful letting go
for a smooth goodbye
celebrating our shared memories
for a frictionless transition into possible and continued friendship
I prefer to honour our experience
cherishing what brought us together
without a wall of silence and projections springing up between us