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dancing with unavailability
not assuming unworthiness or disappointment
the mysterious bond we formed
confused me
when dancing with your unavailability
reflecting your needs
dressed up as freedom
with past expectations intruding
it felt unsafe and painful at times
yet what a perfect pairing
we made
touching on our wounds
when getting closer
it seemed impossible
to soothe each other
unlikely to be healing together
without gently holding
our discomfort and tension
feeling and diving into my depths
stepping back and giving space
and making room
for what is to emerge for myself
facing my pain and shadow
standing in the fire of vulnerability
continues to reconnect
and remember lost parts
leading me to rest in myself with the ease
I experienced in your presence