when pen hits paper

Photo by Majestic Lukas on Unsplash looking my way noticing how scared I am when love looks my way when the closeness I desire moves toward me I am to run or hide most likely from the good trouble noticing how I fear  the deep connection I crave so much and how my wounded self…

Photo by Preslava Glushkova on Unsplash uncomfortably close stepping into what touched my soul and surrendering to its fullness curious about  what it wanted to reveal when tears came running  cleansing my feelings a blissful lightness  washed over me exposing the sadness  hiding of missing you excitement and pain desire and bliss their sensations so…

Photo by Wim van ‘t Einde on Unsplash the game we play there is no scoreboard in the game, we play no red cards no suspensions no penalties no fouls we are not tripping each other up mischievous and naughty tender and sensual joyful and fun and rough at times tied up maybe though never…

Photo by Li Yang on Unsplash impossible learning to walk was impossible without me collecting bruises along the way when falling countless times without getting up again and again learning to swim was impossible without swallowing water without wetting my feet and being out of my depth learning to love you is impossible without expanding…

Photo by Jongsun Lee on Unsplash bliss I hope the sun  finds you today I hope her warmth will hold you in the presence of your heart radiating gently into every corner of your being nourishing your tired limbs  bringing light into your spaciousness fizzling all over you and cascading down enveloping you in a…

Photo by Evgeniya Litovchenko on Unsplash find me find me meeting you no need to welcome me  find me asking no need for you to answer find me giving no need to return the favour find me laughing  no need to understand the joke find me singing no need to join the choir find me…

Photo by Seth on Unsplash shackles my stubborn soul is having a hard time  admitting being cared for  and loved  fills me  with terror and delight to equal measure I could not be more scared  turned on by fear and desire at the same time pretending to look for deep intimacy though feeling safe in…

image by Inka Solana (edited by the author) hands alive no words needed when my hands begin to speak and listen  when roaming all over you resonant  whispering in a language both soft and deep tender and feral weighted and feathery flowing and still honouring cherishing and discovering you when taking and giving pleasure

Photo by Thomas Claeys on Unsplash hands full my hands full undemanding in their sensual presence their resting stillness overflowing with gentle tenderness giving space in holding you close firmly sensing your heart following your lead and leading your follow you feeling me feeling you playfully improvising our dance

Photo by Anastasiya Badun on Unsplash curiosity your curiosity was a maybe at best and so was mine until my heart stretched further overwhelmed by your impact  and by longing and desire bouncing between joy and sadness puzzled my senses when our maybe’s didn’t transform  into a mutual yes your heart not wanting to risk…