when pen hits paper

Photo by Ben Robbins on Unsplash no defence there is no defence against what you cast back at me unable to ignore what you stirred up I could still hide, still run, keep on pretending but something in me longs to ease the ache and soothe the scars of a forgotten time no defence is…

Photo by Etienne Girardet on Unsplash memories flooding in memories  of us flooding in my hands gently brushing your parted lips and fingers escaping your naughty attempts  at biting me grabbing your thick black hair and pulling your head  towards mine our mouths lock our lips meet slowing down tasting and enjoying deliciousness in every…

Photo by Caroline Hernandez on Unsplash in a tender place when tears flow freely I am not at all comfortable unable to hide from myself holding tight as the moon’s mysterious currents  pull me under wash over me why  am I so easily moved – by longing by joy by sorrow and grief? why is…

Photo by aitac on Unsplash imagine if my words had power  they would call you in draw you close never to possess never to let go coming together freely with power my words would strike a spark and stir up ease in our embrace my hands would long to rest in yours if my words…

Photo by Dan Cristian Pădureț on Unsplash your name  when I am tired exhausted in need of deep rest when doubts consume me when I refuse to feel when nothing seems to land and I can’t listen thoughts of you gift me memories  of moments  I felt free  in your presence wiping away worries before…

Photo by Allec Gomes on Unsplash no black & white how can I  meet you without speaking to what troubles me to what might cloud our connection  how can I hold your gaze if my authentic self is not entirely welcome if I have to hide an issue likely upsetting our dynamic  how can I…

Photo by Anastasiya Badun on Unsplash thank you, but no a simple  thank you, but No would have been enough stopping my infatuation in its tracks I never took nor was I meant to take anything  from you declining what I longed to give is acceptable welcome even, if you could not meet me there…

Photo by Li Yang on Unsplash the story ends winds of the past ripping my sails waves hurling  and tossing me around  I am drifting trying to stay afloat fighting unpredictable tides exhausted, tired  acting out a script  I never wrote with lines fed to me reciting words with no meaning in a language I…

Photo by Sunguk Kim on Unsplash finding peace I never find real peace  in the avoidance of tough conversations not in whitewashing  nor dismissing our discomfort I don’t find it in the absence of transparency and honest introspection I find peace  in holding both our disagreement and discontent in the capacity to listen to each…

Photo by Nishaan ahmed on Unsplash holding space I am holding space for the overwhelm I caused you for reaching out  when your capacity was at its limit I am holding space for the moments I was too immature  to gift you room to breathe I am holding space for me in a way I…