Photo by Allec Gomes on Unsplash no black & white how can I meet you without speaking to what troubles me to what might cloud our connection how can I hold your gaze if my authentic self is not entirely welcome if I have to hide an issue likely upsetting our dynamic how can I…
Read morethank you, but no
Photo by Anastasiya Badun on Unsplash thank you, but no a simple thank you, but No would have been enough stopping my infatuation in its tracks I never took nor was I meant to take anything from you declining what I longed to give is acceptable welcome even, if you could not meet me there…
Read morethe story ends
Photo by Li Yang on Unsplash the story ends winds of the past ripping my sails waves hurling and tossing me around I am drifting trying to stay afloat fighting unpredictable tides exhausted, tired acting out a script I never wrote with lines fed to me reciting words with no meaning in a language I…
Read morefinding peace
Photo by Sunguk Kim on Unsplash finding peace I never find real peace in the avoidance of tough conversations not in whitewashing nor dismissing our discomfort I don’t find it in the absence of transparency and honest introspection I find peace in holding both our disagreement and discontent in the capacity to listen to each…
Read moreholding space
Photo by Nishaan ahmed on Unsplash holding space I am holding space for the overwhelm I caused you for reaching out when your capacity was at its limit I am holding space for the moments I was too immature to gift you room to breathe I am holding space for me in a way I…
Read moream I the problem?
Photo by Saad Chaudhry on Unsplash am I the problem? does the buck stop with me? it might, when words reveal my wounds when they touch your vulnerability and encroach on your space when you feel pushed into a corner I’d rather be wrong than unwilling to face the situation,the conflict,the impact I created looking…
Read morequestions
Photo by ÉMILE SÉGUIN ✳️✳️✳️ on Unsplash questions once I am going deep once I avoid limited perspectives trapping my mind labelling you and blaming you for what hides within will no longer suffice will no longer unravel the intrigue of our push and pull no longer answer to our dynamic our emotional entanglement unexplainable…
Read moregold
Photo by Roman Kraft on Unsplash gold there is treasure and gold in uncomfortable tension a source of power found in my pain energy tied up and bound in distress the sparks of courage fuel my transmutation freeing me from past hurts when facing my shadow my ego’s protection defending my soul I no longer…
Read morebreak fall
Photo by Anthony Lee on Unsplash break fall breaking the fall softening my landing is giving me momentum to rise again like welcoming the rain enjoying falling leafs gifting flowers for no reason learning from the river’s song carried by the current’s tide meeting my mistakes gently held in unseen hands listening to their whispers…
Read moredeep pause
Photo by Sven Read on Unsplash deep pause without reflection on my pain I rush into blame I abstain from assumptions I refrain from judgements when taking deep pause opening my heart to curiosity drawing on the breath of stillness finding love in understanding and acceptance when clearing the debris of shadow love always re-emerges…
Read moreno claim
Photo by Kelly Sikkema on Unsplash no claim never did I ask to see me in a light I did not cast to look at me from distorting angles never did I ask to think me better than I am to believe me more evolved never did I seek your adoration no claim I made…
Read morefire inside
Photo by Maxim Tajer on Unsplash fire inside attacking me from within is the rawness of my wounds the unhealed and the hidden protecting me from further hurt has outlived its usefulness pushing me into defense an obstacle to stand my ground learning the hard way what only I can face now I am breathing…
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